Expectations

Everyone has different expectations of what they think/hope I will/should fulfil for them.

I don't know what every person's exact list of expectations are. I know that sometimes because I'm not psychic, I probably fail to meet people's expectations.

What I know right THIS moment is:

My boss expects me to finish certain work by certain deadlines.

My dad expects me to go to sleep by 2am every day.

My flesh is failing me physically a lot due to chionging work till the sun rises for the past few days. (which may mean my flesh expects me to be kinder to it.)

And...

God loves me.

I love God.

What He has put into my hands, I'm happy to mould and do something GOOD for the glory of Him!

Also..

People have strange expectations of me sometimes. Which I don't Have to meet.

People have strange Assumptions of me. Which may not be true.

People are people, and are going to continue judging, assuming, misinterpreting, making conclusions from misinformation, and saying opinions about me.

Likewise..

I've long given up on thinking so much about what other people think.

I've long given up on trying to figure out what happens next (cos God takes care of my future).

I've long given up my own human will.

And I always remember that when you place God above all, seek first His kingdom, all truly will be added unto you..

I am happy where my ministry is going. I haven't stopped seeking to be better all the time, to do more, and even when I don't really know what is the "more" I want to do, God provides that unexpected opportunities for me at the timely moment.

Indeed..even if noone else sees it, my eye is focused on GOD alone, and that is why I do all that I do (school, career, ministry, etc).

I still want More!

And God really works in mysterious ways. So I shall just continue to allow the mysterious workings of the most Almighty to take place in my life, and wait for the "oooh, so That's why God allowed that to happen to me last time~!" moments. :)