Visit from God..

My heart is burdened, for my friends..

The truth, its right there infront of them, they see it and know it, but refuse to acknowledge it..

When will you start being TRUTHFUL to GOD?

That little bit that you don't give to God, He knows.

Today/tonight, powerful presence of God. Holy Spirit kept moving in me.

For Decentralised Zone service, I began to envision a whole terrace full of people. Double the number of the current one today. And God said, "U want 1000? I give u 1000."

Tonight...divine.

Was sitting in front of laptop, began to pray for one of my friends..As I prayed for him, suddenly felt like praying for another girl who I was talking to on msn (suee)..

Presence of God came, HS in me, I suddenly laid hands on screen and start to pray for her, anointing over her life, joy of the Lord in her life, peace. Felt the cloud leave me suddenly, and know that it went over to her. Checked with Suee, yes indeed, presence is over there.

Tested it on Weiye without him knowing, yup again. Laid hands on my screen transmitting HS to people..lol..

Prayed (for many things) until sweaty handprint on my screen for people, began to have a lot of words of knowledge and words of wisdom..prophecies..

But HS started to weep because people were not believing and the work could not be done fully.

Burdened..

Prayed till breathless and giddy, prayed n prayed n prayed....

It's like too much to say in a blog post, how do you explain such a powerful encounter and experience tonight? In mere words, can't...

My english has flown out the window for this post, cos words can't effectively accurately describe what I really felt man...

You're always there.

At 2am+, I didn't have any peace in my heart..

Decided, very suddenly, to do something I've never done before...

I went up to my rooftop, laid down on my back (on the 'platform' thing, if you've ever been to my house), and looked up at the moon and stars..

The air was super cold..breezy..

As I looked up at the sky, I marvelled at God's creation.

I decided to start listening to a worship song, 'dalam kasihmu bapa', from my hp.

When it started playing, all of a sudden, I thought of my Kota Kinabalu mission trip, and the wind started suddenly blowing like incredibly super strong, felt like I was going to be blown off the roof..I was crying as I was reminded of KK, and these words kept repeating in my mind.."You're always there...You're always there..You're always there.."

"I'm always there."

God, You are too incredible for me to comprehend. I love You. Your ways are higher than my ways. I'm just in awe.

Unto God be the glory of all that I do.

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..on a side note, may be the first and last time I do something like that. I accidentally kicked my foot on something when I was coming down from the 'platform'. Painnnn.

Visions

I got such a lot of visions this week as we exercised prophesying over ourselves..every session that Pastor asked us to pray, I'd get a new one..

1. I saw a field, of green grass, a wide expanse. In front, nearby, was a beautiful red farmhouse. In the far distance, I saw a dark mass of clouds, like a thunderstorm, with lightning flashing dangerously. But it was in the distance.

I felt that God was saying, I am that house, your refuge and shelter from the thunderstorms in your life. Why do you keep on looking at the thunderstorms, instead of seeking shelter in Me? In fact, I am closer to you than you realised. Right in front of you.

Why do we stand outside and stare at the problems in our lives, when we have the safety of God to enter into?

2. I saw an island, in the middle of a vast ocean. I saw the shore, obviously seperated from the island by the great amount of water. Then, as I wondered how I could possibly cross from the island to the shore, suddenly, the waters supernaturally subsided, and revealed that the island and the shore were all one piece of land, and I could easily cross over now.

I felt that God was saying, even when we are stuck like on the island with all our problems, wondering how to find a way out, God will begin to reveal miraculous things to us that we never realised before, in ways that we never expected. That we will discover things that were once hidden from us by God. So..don't worry.

3. I saw a huge tall waterfall, which flowed down into a serene river. Note, the river was serene, calm, glistening, like any other nice calm river or lake. It didn't seem like a waterfall had just gushed into it.

I felt that God was saying, even when the heaviness of our problems fall down, and we have overwhelming burdens that gush down, He'll lead us into a place of calm, quiet, peace. All of the troubles that we go through, they will all lead to peace. And it's only God's peace that could guarantee something like that.

He'll lead us to a place of peace and rest when we're struggling through all those troubles..


Seems the common theme here is..when you're going through troubles, God will take care of you, He's got a plan. Thank you God..

Personally, it's a struggle for me in many areas..I'm holding on tightly to the promises He's given.

The Stadium Vision

On Friday, after we had finished with lesson 10 on Homiletics, Pastor Tan suddenly asked us to pray. I did, with no idea of what was about to happen to me.

God sent me a vision so strong, it burns in my mind, every single detail. It was a vision so real, I knew that I wasn't just imagining something.

He showed me a stadium, and I was in it. There were many, many tiers in the stadium, and I was at the very top. A soccer field was at the very bottom. At this top tier where I was, in front of me was a man. I couldn't determine what nationality he was, except maybe Indian or Middle Eastern, or even Russian for all you know. He wasn't really talking or directing any specific attention to me, but he was really 'rah rah' and gesturing intensely at the field with punched fists in the air and flailing of arms.

I told God, You can't just show me this, there must be more, I need to know more, more details. By this time I was already crying as I prayed.

Then, I was suddenly transported to the bottom, onto the very centre of the field. I looked up at the stadium, and I could still make out the figure of the man at the top with his actions. There were no spectators or audience, but there were cleaners, and every few rows or so, a single person walked, just like an usher. I had no idea if they were stadium ushers, event ushers, church ushers, or what.

I could see everything so clearly, even the face of the cleaner nearest to me. He wore a bright yellow shirt as his uniform.

Right after receiving that vision, and the prayer time was ended, I immediately turned to Charmaine, my team member, and told her about it. What she said in response blew me away.

"Just now, when we were praying, God gave me a Word. He told me, 'Rubez will be a great woman of God'. I looked over to you, but you were crying."

I was just stunned. It meant this wasn't just some rubbish my mind conjured randomly, but this was the REAL deal. For it to be confirmed by Charmaine is even more amazing, because she is not just any ordinary member, but she is the Pastor of Revival Nation Church. You couldn't get it any better than this.

I have no idea if that man at the top was a devil, angel, pastor, member, or what. I don't know if this was a church event or secular. I have no idea if this is a stadium in Singapore, overseas, or yet to exist. All I know, is that I have this feeling in me, God wants to send me to this stadium to serve, as for what I'll be serving as, I have no clue either.

I have no further impression that God wants to give me, instead He told me that it was enough for now, besides, I had asked Him for answers to other questions He would address first.

Can you feel the mountains tremble? :D