Fighting battles - Begin!

Had an awesome time serving in performance choir for the weekend. Fun fun, plenty of new experiences! And plenty of hairspray in my hair that I had to wash out..x_X

Would really love to join, but not at this season..in the future I guess? Right now, I have other things to focus on for the moment..

Am currently feeling slightly overwhelmed..mostly cos of school..barely started one week of it, and I'm feeling a little lost..must figure out what I need to do, and do it!

I will figure it out! I know that I really need to fight major battles this week, to catch up in my readings and not to lag behind in my essay deadline (though its one month away). Start early is always good! :)

First time in my life, I actually had to take PINK panadol..was majorly in pain today, nearly couldn't leave my house..super duper pain in expo also, thank God for well-equipped ladies..

This is crazy man..I've never been so 'jialat' that I had to take PINK panadol before..grrrr..

Get thee behind me, devil!!!

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Oh yah, by the way. I got a 'Distinction' for one of my modules. :) Just left with finding out the results for one more module from last trimester..

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I wish I could get more PAY....more PAID assignments, with the PAY coming in to my bank asap..so much 'incoming' but none reached yet..Where's my pay????

I already fulfilled my building fund, so its not really urgent, just for myself to eat/shop/etc..but still..

21st bday summary!

My 21st birthday celebrations were a blast! Really thank God that for the past two years I didn't celebrate, this year combined 3 years in 1 worth of celebration..really happy..

Celebrated with my family+relatives+cell group on 28 Feb (which made alot of people think my twin sis and I were born on 29 Feb or something -_-; Actual is 3 March..). Was really blessed above and beyond what I expected, as my relatives really went the extra mile to get us things we would appreciate.

(Apologies for no pictures at the moment! I will update them on FB/here when I can. I can't find my cable right now..) Edited: Pics are up now!

Twin sis and I were glad to have our awesomest perfect cake. MUAHAHA. >D Watch out for the pic to know the full powahhh. It's not a '21' or a key..it's..

a GIANT CHOCOLATE 'R'!!!!

Also had a movie outing+dinner with some of the choir people..and was surprised and touched they remembered/bothered so much for me. :)

Total Present list for the curious:

-Favourite present: Flowers! :) From my eldest sis.
-Got a bouquet of roses from cell group as well. Whee!


-Bag (from cell group)
-A lot of makeup from various people o.O;
-Topshop vouchers (cousins)
-ang paos
-sheep snowglobe (super duper random. O.O They know I like sheep though. ^^ll from the gang)
-Voice recordable teddy bear with the gang singing bday song to me (HAHAHA!)
-pretty paper notebook (the gang)
-body shop products (various)
-charm bracelet (cousin)
-cross necklace (one encouraging auntie T_T)
-Red and black shirt (the one I really really really wanted~ from choir kakis~ <3) style="font-weight: bold;">Added: Just remembered the gang got me an Apple Strudel, cos I randomly said I had craving for it. XD

YAY I'm very happy and blessed this birthday. Thank you everyone! :)) It makes up for the past two years of not celebrating.

Thank you to my usual gang, sticking with me for years and years. Nearly a decade now!

Thank you to my family, who really put in so much effort for me..

Thanks to all the people who sent me wishes via sms or fb!

Thank you to the choir people, who really make me feel like an important part of this big family..I really LOVE YOU ALL! It's really a family feeling I have in choir.

Aiya don't say anymore le later people cry~

Ending = New beginnings..

The CNY dialect drama was a success!! Thanks EVERYONE for your hard work! But my work is not over yet, still need to do Citynews write up for it..

Want to thank everyone who added love units to my love bank, when it was obvious how 'bankrupt' I was..loves to all..

Body ached today (Monday), in the end I had to go to riverwalk for evening PM..but its SO crowded..think I'll be making sure I go to HoG for next few days, see whether its better..

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I miss the english drama team, but I've already decided since last year, that I don't want to be 'mobilised' until after Easter 2009 at least.. =)

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School school school school school..........

Please poke me on msn to do my assignments..literally every week I have something due..

=X

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Am currently attempting to keep awake and go for morning PM straight, then school, then to choir pract..

Will I make it?! Is this crazy? Siao liao..

But I'm not the only one staying up apparently! Haha..at least got someone to chat to so won't be so boring..

It's already 3am now..*goes do stuff and continues post later*

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Now that one major event has concluded, along with January..what's in store for the rest of the year?

An Ending means New Beginnings..but what kind of new beginnings are coming?

So fast, one and half months is finished!

EEKS I forgot I have to study for my final theory..2nd attempt..-_- its on Feb 20..

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The person who was staying up too, gave up.. :( (want to put disclaimer first, I did not ask her to stay up, she happened to find me on msn first, and tell me she decided to stay up)

She started giving lots of those excuses to justify herself for not going for morning PM..too tiring to pray early in the morning, don't like having so many people around when praying, so crowded..etc..

What I feel, it's only 'Want' or 'Don't Want' with God.

I thank God though, that she trusts me enough to share some of her personal life with me..being open to me..I'm given a privilege as a friend, when people share with me..

If you're reading my blog, I Love YOU ok gal..I'm praying for you..thank you for giving me access to your life.. :)

Jiayou ok..I believe in you, and God is with you..believe you know but is just feeling a bit confused over what to do now bah..

Anytime I'm here, just to lend you the listening ear you need bah.. :)

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It reminded me of something..I seriously don't like 'ai mai ai mai' (undecided, fickle, one minute yes another minute no) type of guys. My future husband must be decisive (but not to the point of dominant; got to be considerate to my opinions too of course), and keep to his word. As in, don't everything also 'anything' or 'up to you' or 'I don't know', and definitely don't promise something, but never deliver..

Btw, I DID manage to stay up after all..about 4.30am now..muahaha..=D Call me crazy, but I'm too ONzzzzz for morning PM tomorrow/later, don't know why..I'm not so overly religious ok, I guiltily overslept on Monday morning and went to evening PM, remember..hmm....

I think, I'm so gonna get my coffee when I go to school...^^

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Just finished and sent the edited props list for dialect CNY drama....

Am really tired..still have to prepare cue sheet (when I eventually wake up tomorrow)..

Anyway, today's rehearsal was ok..can see the fruit beginning to take shape...I'm thankful I have 3 MANpower for my backstage crew..glad too that Eileen is there to help Justin with the blocking and acting stuff..and Shawn too to give tips..I'm not an octopus, I really can't keep an eye on the back AND front of the stage at the same time...

@_@

I'm thankful for each and every single person involved..whether the stage or off-stage ministries..

Really feel God has given a lot of favour to this drama..or at least, I'm experiencing it..

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John Bevere spoke this weekend, he is FANTASTIC. I'm just blown away by his message. I really want his books and audio cds, but no $$..

It's really so true, how you HONOUR your leaders/peers/entrusted ones to you, determines your reward..

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My birthday is coming soon, but I don't know what to do..

INTJ

This year..

I don't want the word 'normal', I want EXTRAORDINARY! In all aspects of my life.

So...

I'll stop saying I'm just normal. I'm extraordinary! :D And I'm going to do more non-normal things this year. I'm going to break through and through, above and beyond.

I just keep having this 'itch' in me, that wants to do more and more and more..in every single area that I have..

Of course, not more just for me, but for GOD. :)

And not just wanting more in terms of achievements, but more of God Himself.

It's just a word on my lips..'more'..

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Went for my first time to Dialect CNY drama rehearsal yesterday (Sunday). Think the second run was more 'there', just need everyone to work hard together, and we'll have a stellar production! :)

Really thank God for this bunch of people, though I just came on board they do respect my views..no diva attitude from anyone, which really goes to show how they're here for a good production to serve GOD's purpose, not their own..

I do think Justin, JiaJia and Vic have done a commendable job in overseeing this whole thing..especially when they're not specialised in drama in any way..

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Saw this test on Kexin's blog, been a few years since I last did it. Last time I was INFJ. Now, I'm INTJ. Very interesting and pretty accurate!

INTJ explanations:

Rational portrait of the Mastermind (INTJ)
Typelogic INTJ profile


Do the test too, and let me know what you are! :D

Asia Conference

So I've just completed a 5-day long Asia Conference! Went every day, and almost every session except Thursday morning (school, bah).

Awesomeness abound! Although, during this whole week, I was busy serving in different areas. Choir, Citynews, and Parade of Nations. At least I didn't have to battle unending queues just to get into the halls. Still, serving (in any area) is tough. Lots of unexpected things cropped up, chaos and confusion. Overall, happy that I managed to experience something different every day!

I have one lesser pair of boots now (BH choir, got spoilt in the process..) and a huge gigantic bruise (BH choir also..). But its worth it, muahaha.

There are two things I really learnt during this whole conference.

1. The true meaning of serving: Service is a sacrifice after all. Felt that this was what God was trying to show me during these 5 days, that is, the essence of servanthood. Why do you do the things you do? Do you join so you can benefit yourself, or so you can make something better for others? Serving doesn't always mean you do something, sometimes it means Not doing something for the greater benefit of the whole group.

One of my friends in Parade of Nations got replaced at the very last minute, and he was really unhappy and started saying things like "why are they always so last minute", "why can't they tell me earlier", "waste my time", "I could have gone and serve in my ministry", "I could be in the hall right now instead of here wasting my time". I told him, "Do you think God looks at your heart, or look at your service?" He didn't understand what I was trying to say at the moment.

The next night, I couldn't serve in the choir cos of too many people, so I chose to come down. And on Sunday night, I was the first to get 'eliminated'. Beside that, got a lot of changes during Citynews, sometimes I couldn't get something done cos it got cancelled at the last minute. So I do understand the type of feeling of 'wasted my time' or 'I could have gone and serve in another ministry if I knew'. But I remembered what I just said on Wed night, and obviously I'm not going to have such similar negative thoughts, because if I'm going to be so 'toot', I know I wouldn't even want someone like me serving. That wouldn't be called servanthood anymore. The difference between Serving (doing the action) and Servanthood (the attitude in the heart)..

I am really proud of all the people who worked hard together to make the Asia Conference a success. Through everyone's teamwork, love and concern for one another, and putting service before self, really contributed to the great event.

Choir super rocks! Thanks to all the ICs for all the coordinating, and members who tirelessly came early to put makeup, dress up, etc, even though sometimes they don't get to sing due to too many people. And everyone looks out for each others welfare - that's the core of being servants to one another.

Citynews crew are unbelievable! The editors, writers, and reporters were working round the clock the whole time. They often have to sacrifice going for the sessions or their own electives (I had to give up mine) in order to do writing or reporting. Having to write with one hour time frame immediately after the session/elective/meeting is crazy! Ironman and women, all of them!! And much thanks to the photography ministry and video ministry for lending us people!

Parade of Nations was a 'once in a lifetime' experience I'm glad to have been part of! Everyone did great, and we saw Don Moen cry during the parade..We're going to claim the nations, yes we will!

2. I need more of God in my life. :)))))))

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Asia Conference is over, next is Christmas! Already getting back to work for drama ministry. Besides that, being chased for my work work. Articles deadline, argh, had no time to write due to the hectic past week's schedule.

I am BLESSED with good friends and a greater God.

Expanding.

I'm unexpectedly having so much fun in choir!!

First week: I get asked to write the Citinews article for choir.
Second week (this week): I get to attend an awesomely fun chalet.

Coming up: Asia Conference!

Who knew it'd be this fun? :D All thanks to the wonderful great people inside of course!!

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In order to move forward, does it mean pressing on despite unfavourable circumstances, or does it mean breaking free to find something else that could be better?

Praying for clarity of direction, and trusting God to provide the solution.

Deja Vu

Went for choir practice as an official official official member..lol~ Was better than I expected. Cos I was initially a bit apprehensive, since I don't really have any clique or kakis in there yet..or rather, they're all in alto..

Well, suffice to say, I think I can look forward to lots of enjoyable times in choir to come! :) Lots of events and activities coming..

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It's like deja vu..

I wonder..

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I have articles to complete..school assignments too..hmm....

When you really positively confess your dreams with a specific timeline, suddenly things start to happen..

I'm also reminded that whatever you're doing now that seems small, is usually part of some bigger plan that we can't see. It's really unexpected how all the little things you don't think about much end up adding up to be important stepping stones to a dream. Like I said some time ago, God knows our desires, even what we don't know that we want.

Well, surprises keep life interesting..:) Expecting the unexpected..lol..

Let's cultural mandate. Creativity requires RISK-TAKING!

I'm excited for many reasons!

First all of, because I'm going back to choir! I'll be in soprano. Guess it's gonna be fun, breaking glass *cough*. Haha!

I'm very high watching my friends fulfil the cultural mandate! JIAYOU JIAYOU, let's all jiayou together! Must say congrats to Jim, he is doing well, his performances are improving! Go to his blog to watch his videos! Cultural mandating! Creativity requires Risk!

I'm going to work hard too!!! In my ministries, in my work, in my life!

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"Innocence is virtue tested." Indeed. It reminds me of my work very much. Throughout this short time, I've been asked to interview people whose values or life choices may greatly differ from mine. I have a choice, to take or turn down assignments. I'm glad I didn't choose assignments merely based on 'what type' of person I'd liked to interview. If I only want to interview "certain" type of people, like "strong Christians" who will quote about God in half the interview, doing things that are related to Church or God only, then I might as well write for a Christian magazine. It's like what Pastor said. How do you relate to the world, if all you speak is "Christian-ese"? Got to be normal! In the world, but not of the world.

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Today, as usual, Alan Liu says it best. "Today is a very, very weird day."

My cell group went to Sembawang Park to catch crabs, and have a bbq. Unfortunately, half of Singapore also turned up. And we only caught a few miserable ones, unlike Daniel Teh who caught a whole boxful the last time he came with his friends. And then we threw them back into the sea.

In the meantime, I got full on keropok and satay. X_X

Then we went to Chomp Pang to eat (or some of them ate, I was already KO). And throughout the day, Alan Liu was just "Today is a very weird day". Which my cgl agreed. Cgl kept wondering why we're all so hot and tired when it rained and we didn't really do anything.

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Ok, well, my weird day doesn't end there.. Went home, saw my mother watching the Singapore Hit Awards. So I just watched a bit, since Mayday was performing. Then my mother said something very funny to me.

Mother: "Are they good? Their song isn't nice.."
Me: "Yah..they're very popular.."
Mother: "Really? But their song isn't nice..I thought ENERGY is better?"
Me: "O_O"

Don't ask me man. o.O;

An early morning msn conversation

An early morning msn conversation..

CANDICE® ❤ °° I KNOW YOU WILL SHINE YOUR LIGHT... °° says:
what time u leaving house
[Rubez] [2/10 down] inspired to step out and step it up says:
8-8.30 bah..if i wanna reach 10..if nt i can tuo
[Rubez] [2/10 down] inspired to step out and step it up says:
wat time u reaching?
CANDICE® ❤ °° I KNOW YOU WILL SHINE YOUR LIGHT... °° says:
10 loh
[Rubez] [3/10 down] inspired to step out and step it up says:
kopi?
CANDICE® ❤ °° I KNOW YOU WILL SHINE YOUR LIGHT... °° says:
yeah
CANDICE® ❤ °° I KNOW YOU WILL SHINE YOUR LIGHT... °° says:
hahaha
CANDICE® ❤ °° I KNOW YOU WILL SHINE YOUR LIGHT... °° says:
kopi
CANDICE® ❤ °° I KNOW YOU WILL SHINE YOUR LIGHT... °° says:
sounds like some uncle always go coffee shop
[Rubez] [3/10 down] inspired to step out and step it up says:
HAHA
[Rubez] [3/10 down] inspired to step out and step it up says:
we are all old

LOL..early in the morning at 7am..I just finished my sermon (prosperity), chionged from 4.30am to 7am. Frankly, don't really feel very good since yesterday. Exhaustion.. Yesterday (tuesday) when I went to work, I was so unfocused, I couldn't even photocopy properly. Quite obvious I was 'gone'. Told my manager I wanted to take leave for the rest of this week..although I need the money but I don't want to KO.

Glad that I went for choir practice, it was great. ^^ Quite fortunate that I have opportunity to know so many nice and awesome people in choir. Wilma and Michelle are amazing amazing amazing. All the things that we need to do for choir showcase, they are just WOW at getting it done. If I could, I'd so 'kope' them over to DM anytime to be backstage crew..keke..join the (literally) dark side..

I just realised seems like a lot of choir people could do well backstage. Very detailed people, sharp and on the ball, yet calm~ Just like..JOYYY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOY! <33333 May you be blessed many many much much alot! Haha, you from choir went to moonlight backstage, I'm the other way around, from backstage run to choir..lolz..

YAY I LOVE JOY! <3 Super power woman!