Don't sweat the small stuff?

I made a mistake, and I don't know whether to say "I'm learning, learn from mistakes and don't let it happen again", or should it be "I shouldn't even have allowed this mistake to happen at all, it could have been easily prevented".

What to do, I'm not perfect......

In any case..I'm happy I had my tau huay zui to drink at home after a long day at drama..

It was a really long day..minor accident during rehearsal at expo, no injuries, but we had plenty of shattered glass to clean up from the carpet..crikey.....chionging of people to attain last minute props to make everything perfect..

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Some other stuff I am a bit upset about..

Easter celebration in the local news!

Our Easter Celebration is reported in the Straits Times today!

Awesome! :)) I watched the drama yesterday, and indeed it is unbelievable!!!! Super cool opening scene, very interesting storyline, and beautiful set. ♥

Ok I got to run to expo now..I'm also helping out at the City News booth at the SME Fiesta trade fair in the morning. Booth F06! Come check it out. :D

When you thought life could not be more shocking..

This week is just full of 'experiences', so to speak.

Monday: First driving lesson. Went home, chionged overnight until the next morning to get essay done, went to school on Tuesday without sleeping.

Tuesday: Went to school, handed in essay, dozed during class. Went home, chionged overnight until next morning to get presentation and summary done. Somewhere along the night, get asked to help out for drama, and I agree. Slept at 7.30am, aimed to wake up at 10am.

Wednesday: Got woken up by sms at 9.50am (don't you hate it when that happens? getting woken up before your alarm....). Telling me about "hey, I just heard that [insert message about boss resigned, do I think we still have jobs to do or not]". Speculated if its just a rumour, but boss calls me personally an hour later, and confirms it. I get up and go to school, now rendered in a temporal state of joblessness. Did my presentation. Went home, had no mood to do anything, not even to play games on FB.

Thursday (today): Skipped school to regain my sleep. Went for rehearsal. Received phone call in the middle of rehearsal from big vonne, asking me to help do something. Reached home after rehearsal at 2am? Bathed, ate, went online, and cg member talks to me (not usual occurence). Asked how come I wasn't at cg today (I'm excused from cg for drama rehearsal..), and then drops a big shocker on me:

Our cg will be combining with one of MJ's cell groups to eventually multiply, and my cgl will not be leading us anymore. In fact, cgl+wife might even be transferring to be members in another zone altogether. Some of us members might go to youth cell groups. Merger takes place with effect from 1st April.

...does anyone have anything they want to tell me? This week would be a really good week to do so. I still have Friday, Saturday, and Sunday left for you!

Christmas 2008

If you're looking for Christmas photos....

I don't have any. ^^;; Was too busy backstage to take any (except for ONE with Weishan aka "dong bian!" king, cos he took with every person).

Christmas Drama was alright, now I finally had today to catch up on one month of no sleep.

Now my figure is "dee-e-li-i-ciouss!" (or I wish, haha) after losing tons of weight again..seriously, my jeans became hipsters and then even lower than that..

I have souvenirs from Christmas..they're called bumps, bruises, cuts, and a whack on my head from a metal pole..X_X I even burnt my thumb during a rehearsal (melting the candle to stick it to the stand, and the flame suddenly got blown back by the aircon...)

Still, I felt really loved on Christmas! :) At least some people remembered me enough to give me smses, little chocs or even pressies! Its really the little things that help boost me through. Besides lots of prayer of course.

After the last service, reached home and KO till late today..

Must catch up on life's other responsibilities now..

Maturity

I can't believe one year has flown by just like that..I'm looking at some random Christmas ornament that my supervisor at GEHA gave me when I was interning last year.

My 2008 has truly been good. God didn't forsake me throughout this whole year. I held on to the promise, that 2008 was "my" year..

I'm overwhelmed by how much I've achieved and been superbly blessed throughout..despite the obstacles, despite many times when I wanted to give up, even up to now I still will struggle with so much responsibilities to fulfil..

One of my members has this in his msn nick: "Maturity does not come from time. Maturity comes from responsibility."

So true..

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Christmas schedule for crew is out! aka I'm activated for Christmas drama. Let's do this! :)

I've got exams coming up..Basic theory test also..wahh..

Be nice to me this Christmas? :D You can contribute to my Pokka Peach Tea supply, or Pink Dolphin, for December. They're my red bull for surviving backstage.

Or, you can forcefeed me. I'm prepared to lose ALOT of weight again..x_X

Or, you can say hi to me backstage! No wait, I'm not sure you want to see my super unglam face..

An early morning msn conversation

An early morning msn conversation..

CANDICE® ❤ °° I KNOW YOU WILL SHINE YOUR LIGHT... °° says:
what time u leaving house
[Rubez] [2/10 down] inspired to step out and step it up says:
8-8.30 bah..if i wanna reach 10..if nt i can tuo
[Rubez] [2/10 down] inspired to step out and step it up says:
wat time u reaching?
CANDICE® ❤ °° I KNOW YOU WILL SHINE YOUR LIGHT... °° says:
10 loh
[Rubez] [3/10 down] inspired to step out and step it up says:
kopi?
CANDICE® ❤ °° I KNOW YOU WILL SHINE YOUR LIGHT... °° says:
yeah
CANDICE® ❤ °° I KNOW YOU WILL SHINE YOUR LIGHT... °° says:
hahaha
CANDICE® ❤ °° I KNOW YOU WILL SHINE YOUR LIGHT... °° says:
kopi
CANDICE® ❤ °° I KNOW YOU WILL SHINE YOUR LIGHT... °° says:
sounds like some uncle always go coffee shop
[Rubez] [3/10 down] inspired to step out and step it up says:
HAHA
[Rubez] [3/10 down] inspired to step out and step it up says:
we are all old

LOL..early in the morning at 7am..I just finished my sermon (prosperity), chionged from 4.30am to 7am. Frankly, don't really feel very good since yesterday. Exhaustion.. Yesterday (tuesday) when I went to work, I was so unfocused, I couldn't even photocopy properly. Quite obvious I was 'gone'. Told my manager I wanted to take leave for the rest of this week..although I need the money but I don't want to KO.

Glad that I went for choir practice, it was great. ^^ Quite fortunate that I have opportunity to know so many nice and awesome people in choir. Wilma and Michelle are amazing amazing amazing. All the things that we need to do for choir showcase, they are just WOW at getting it done. If I could, I'd so 'kope' them over to DM anytime to be backstage crew..keke..join the (literally) dark side..

I just realised seems like a lot of choir people could do well backstage. Very detailed people, sharp and on the ball, yet calm~ Just like..JOYYY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOY! <33333 May you be blessed many many much much alot! Haha, you from choir went to moonlight backstage, I'm the other way around, from backstage run to choir..lolz..

YAY I LOVE JOY! <3 Super power woman!

Passion

Haven't blogged for a while, its not for lack of things to blog about, more like my life suddenly got flooded with events. X_X

Well, firstly, as a lot of people would have noticed, last Wednesday's Straits Times has my photo on the FRONT page. Not by myself, but with my twin sis and a whole bunch of other twins that are also graduating from SP. I'm immensely surprised that they put this on the cover page, but oh well. :D Cheap thrill in life, ahaha. Can tell people that you've been on the cover of the newspaper. For doing nothing!

Ok ok, jokes aside, I'm really privileged to have this honour. It made me think about how, by something that I just happen to have (being born a twin), God is able to use me to glorify Him. Suddenly it's a great talking point and ice-breaker wherever I go. Like Kexin told her boss when she introduced me today, how I'm 'that girl' who appeared on the cover of the newspaper last week. Er heh heh.

Really, if God can use something as basic and simple as this, what great plans does He have for the talents and gifts He has placed in me? It makes me just in awe to think. :) Exciting, ain't it.

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I just recovered from two weeks of fever, sore throat and cough. It came during the week I had to go for Mock CG evaluation! So just DO IT! And thankfully I didn't KO and collapse somewhere in a shivering heap, made it through each day and got some good comments.

I just chionged almost 100 pages of the book for assignment. 400+ to go. I got delayed in my reading, having to take care of so many things. Sigh. Just when I'm recovered, my sister falls sick. And my teammates too. Virus, begone!!!!!

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Recently, there's been alot of thought on my mind about ministry. My cgl got me to share about what keeps me going in the ministry, that breaking point and the defining moments.

Well, in Drama Ministry, it really is a passion. I love God, I love Drama, so marry the two and hey presto! How I even got into DM is another long story. Anyway, that's another story for another day.

When I tell people I'm in Drama Ministry, the first thing they ask me is "What have you acted in?" Then when I tell them I'm in the Backstage crew, they don't know how to react. People usually don't even realise or know that backstage crew exist! It doesn't really bother me, because backstage crew are supposed to be invisible. But sometimes, when you feel so tired serving, negative thoughts might come. Serving so hard in the back, yet no one recognises the hard work, let alone know of your existence. It can be mind-grinding and demoralising at times.

Backstage crew really serve hard; first to reach (always at least one hour before the actors arrive, so we can set up the stage, clean the stage of dangerous objects etc), and last to go home (got to pack up, preset for the next day's show, clean and clear the stage, etc). We dress black from head to toes (a single bit of white or colour, and we have to cover that up with black tape ;) ), got to do a lot of physical hard work, we can't join our cell groups, we can't watch the very performance that we are working so hard to support, and all the glory goes to..

Nah, not the actors. :) To God, always. The difficult times are when I feel so tired, and drained. I miss my cell group, always can't go for cg and can't even see them during services due to rehearsal and shows, can't fellowship either cos I need to help settle the backstage stuff. So what's the defining moment?

When Pastor gives that altar call, and I see all the hundreds, no, thousands, of people that flood the aisles.

When you know that all that sweat, blood, tears, crying out to God for more strength, all the time you spent, all the sleep you lost, all the sacrifices you made..it all comes down to that. The fruit. And I'm always so amazed, how the backstage crew can minister to the people, in our own way, without even being seen! :)

And..contrast that now with what I'm doing: Serving in SOT Choir, and also the main service choir as part of SOT practicuum. ^^ It's totally opposite! From the backstage, where I'm supposed to be invisible and unseen, now I'm thrust to the front stage, where I'm supposed to be vibrant and noticed. Haha! Truthfully, I love it. It's an incredible experience for me. I'll be a bit sad when SOT ends and I won't be in choir anymore. :( Unless..I go and join the main choir ministry? (I think I can hear my DM 'si fu' screaming in protest..bleargh :P) Hehe..I'll leave that to after SOT to decide. Anyway, no production for a while until Christmas, so I'd be rather free ministry-wise. The 'sabbath' period for the DM, before it's the mad power rush again. Whoot.

I'm very blessed to have the best of both worlds. :)

Haha, I must share this too: I had a lot of difficulty deciding which ministry to join last time, because I felt a strong desire in 3 ministries, all of which I really liked. Drama, TV, and Choir. I really prayed really hard about it, for a very long time, and felt so torn inside having to decide on just one. Somehow, I didn't feel compelled to make just one final decision, but it really felt that in some way, I would be able to do all 3. Just had this strong feeling in me, although logically, it'd be impossible. I trusted in God's perfect timing and guidance IMMENSELY. And a chain of crazy incidences later, by strange circumstances, I found myself in Drama Ministry.

And just when I thought Drama Ministry was all I'd be doing, and maybe join TV as a weekly ministry during the DM 'sabbath' period, I found myself an opportunity to serve Choir! I had actually foregone Choir in my mind, with the logical mindset thinking that it'd be impossible with my other plans.

What are the odds?? It's only possible through God's supernatural arrangement! I already know deep in me that the time for me to serve TV will come when it comes, sooner or later. :)

So tired and exhausted at times, but I'm happy. Somehow things will work out..it always does.

Mothers' Day

Mothers' Day is over. I was packed to the brim helping out with the Mothers' Day drama. Mostly I had to take care of the little girl actor. I found that kids are really a love-hate thing. But love truly triumphs. :) So that was like training me for motherhood. Lol.

Thank God for all my wonderful crew and great cast. The crew are power, a lot of them are first time helping out in their delegated areas. Great job! And my little Bess broke hearts. Muahaha. But I think she broke mine the most. >.<

Even for myself, in this production, I was given so many responsibilities that were also 'first time' for me. I had to handle the rental and transportation of the rented furniture, prepare the foodstuffs in the props, take care of a little kid, while simultaneously helping out with miscellaneous backstage matters.

All this while going to SOT and work!!

In the end, I overcame the odds! God's strength with me. Whew. Breakthrough for me ministry-wise. And capacity as well. It brought forth skills I didn't know I had before and trained me for things I didn't think I could have done before. In other words, potential was turned into substance. Yay~ :D

I had a revelation the other day. I still don't quite understand some parts, but I think it'll all make sense in due course. Let's wait and see what's in store for me. (Hey that rhymed!)

Feel quite encouraged by pleasent surprises of people smsing me encouragements during this busy time. To know that there are people who care is a priceless treasure.