"You are no longer a youth!"

The statement:

"You are no longer a youth!" ~MJ to me

Well, this is the official explanation for why I have not been involved for the past 1-2 years in ANY youth event in the zone. Heck, I haven't even HEARD of them can?

So, I have been regarded as an adult for a very long time now. Since I've been in adult cell I guess. Anyway, I've always felt that I leaned more towards being an adult than a youth.

*drumrolls*

I'm officially in (another) adult cell, N255, under MJ. I guess this is a sign that I should seriously 'forget' the youth stuff, and concentrate on all the things adults do (career, building ministry, etc etc etc).

Don't get it wrong, I'm happy with any arrangement..

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A lot of people constantly ask the same question of me. No, it's not "When are you getting attached?" (although that is one of the most Frequently Asked Questions as well....). It's "When are you going to act?"

I haven't acted in church because I didn't make the cut for the actor auditions in drama ministry last time, and now I'm a full-fledged backstage crew.

I haven't acted in ANYTHING whatsoever, ever since more than 3 years ago, when I gave up theatre for more church activities. (I don't have any regrets, just nostalgia.)

My last acting in anything whatsoever was in Feb 2006....

Last week..A sudden opportunity, an offer for a TV series audition for a really minor role that other people may have turned down, but I went for it, and got picked.

Even if its not a glamourous role, nor have more than one line of dialogue, I'm so overjoyed to have this chance to act again....

Don't sweat the small stuff?

I made a mistake, and I don't know whether to say "I'm learning, learn from mistakes and don't let it happen again", or should it be "I shouldn't even have allowed this mistake to happen at all, it could have been easily prevented".

What to do, I'm not perfect......

In any case..I'm happy I had my tau huay zui to drink at home after a long day at drama..

It was a really long day..minor accident during rehearsal at expo, no injuries, but we had plenty of shattered glass to clean up from the carpet..crikey.....chionging of people to attain last minute props to make everything perfect..

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Some other stuff I am a bit upset about..

Good Friday to Easter Sunday

Let's talk about my weekend then!

First off, I was not involved with this year's Easter drama as it clashed with my exams. :( Yah, a lot of people have been asking why I wasn't backstage.

Anyway, I served for choir and also City News! Spent a lot of time at Hall 7, at the City News booth for the SME Fiesta Trade Fair 2009. We had a mock studio where you could pretend to be newscasters, and even burn a DVD of it. So cool!

Saw a lot of interesting booths around, but one that I personally love is Maverick Couture. Their clothes are gorgeous. *_* It looks a little like what SKIN brings in, but I think I kind of prefer Maverick Couture more.

Haiz. I want clothes. I saw the dusty pink hoodie from MC get sold out before my eyes. :( The sad (or good?) thing is that they only carry a few pieces of each, sold out means sold out. Have no $ to spare on luxury clothing now, guess I'll just aim to get a nice hoodie or jacket next year. ♥

...along with my wishlist of a mini laptop (VAIO? or even MacBook Pro/Air), and a PDA phone (Blackberry or iPhone). Oh, and GUESS bag/wallet. :X Hey, we've all got to have dreams right??

Also watched the Easter Drama twice. I really enjoyed it, it was a really dark and deep theme this time around. Congrats to all the team for working so hard and successfully giving a great show (for 9 services!). Awesome!!

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Life Lesson #799: Do not take driving lesson at 7am on Easter Sunday. The pillar which you will almost bang will tell you why.

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This weekend will be the final instalment of the 'Shawn & Sally' series (the official name is actually 'Love Busters'). I'll be doing backstage. I'm not sure if there's a season 3 to come..

I still have one more exam to go, on thiscoming Tuesday. Media Law and Ethics. Urgh. What's more, its at NIGHT. -_- I'm going to have a hungry grumbly tummy while doing the exam. Bah!

How do you call this relaxing during the holidays when there's still exams.. -_- School is going to reopen super early next month as well..where's my rest??

Easter celebration in the local news!

Our Easter Celebration is reported in the Straits Times today!

Awesome! :)) I watched the drama yesterday, and indeed it is unbelievable!!!! Super cool opening scene, very interesting storyline, and beautiful set. ♥

Ok I got to run to expo now..I'm also helping out at the City News booth at the SME Fiesta trade fair in the morning. Booth F06! Come check it out. :D

When you thought life could not be more shocking..

This week is just full of 'experiences', so to speak.

Monday: First driving lesson. Went home, chionged overnight until the next morning to get essay done, went to school on Tuesday without sleeping.

Tuesday: Went to school, handed in essay, dozed during class. Went home, chionged overnight until next morning to get presentation and summary done. Somewhere along the night, get asked to help out for drama, and I agree. Slept at 7.30am, aimed to wake up at 10am.

Wednesday: Got woken up by sms at 9.50am (don't you hate it when that happens? getting woken up before your alarm....). Telling me about "hey, I just heard that [insert message about boss resigned, do I think we still have jobs to do or not]". Speculated if its just a rumour, but boss calls me personally an hour later, and confirms it. I get up and go to school, now rendered in a temporal state of joblessness. Did my presentation. Went home, had no mood to do anything, not even to play games on FB.

Thursday (today): Skipped school to regain my sleep. Went for rehearsal. Received phone call in the middle of rehearsal from big vonne, asking me to help do something. Reached home after rehearsal at 2am? Bathed, ate, went online, and cg member talks to me (not usual occurence). Asked how come I wasn't at cg today (I'm excused from cg for drama rehearsal..), and then drops a big shocker on me:

Our cg will be combining with one of MJ's cell groups to eventually multiply, and my cgl will not be leading us anymore. In fact, cgl+wife might even be transferring to be members in another zone altogether. Some of us members might go to youth cell groups. Merger takes place with effect from 1st April.

...does anyone have anything they want to tell me? This week would be a really good week to do so. I still have Friday, Saturday, and Sunday left for you!

Super Tuesday

Enjoyed today muchly!

Firstly, finally watched Slumdog Millionaire with a bunch of old friends. It's GOOD! Please watch if you haven't! :D I rate it at least 8/10.

Went for choir pract after that..fun night today..haha..

Hmm, there's pract next week eh. Guess I'll just satisfy a simple craving on next Tuesday -- feel like eating ice cream. Maybe a McFlurry. =X Hahaha. I'm a simple to please person really.

I'm glad that drama still thinks of me to ask me to help out for this week..but I can't for this week especially..

ASK and you shall RECEIVE indeed! When you pray, things happen. I prayed for some stuff regarding my work last night, and got what I needed today. Miraculous. o.O Thank You God, I'm very happy!! Though I need to work very hard this week to clear all my schoolwork and work stuff.

God is good. :))

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Received open invitation from theatre friends to audition or help out in an outside theatre production (ie if any of you are interested, I can pass you the info)..Guess its not a paid one, more like for fun/passion, as most ad hoc theatre productions are..Truthfully, I'm tempted to audition. I have not acted for a very very long time..its something I enjoy doing, but could not do for few years now..However, am wondering, is this an Opportunity or a Distraction from my life's direction?

If I want to try, I need to arrange for an audition next week already..

Just thinking aloud...but your opinions are always welcome.. :) Sometimes we need another person to help us see from another perspective, as even what may be obvious we may not realise it ourselves..

Ending = New beginnings..

The CNY dialect drama was a success!! Thanks EVERYONE for your hard work! But my work is not over yet, still need to do Citynews write up for it..

Want to thank everyone who added love units to my love bank, when it was obvious how 'bankrupt' I was..loves to all..

Body ached today (Monday), in the end I had to go to riverwalk for evening PM..but its SO crowded..think I'll be making sure I go to HoG for next few days, see whether its better..

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I miss the english drama team, but I've already decided since last year, that I don't want to be 'mobilised' until after Easter 2009 at least.. =)

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School school school school school..........

Please poke me on msn to do my assignments..literally every week I have something due..

=X

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Am currently attempting to keep awake and go for morning PM straight, then school, then to choir pract..

Will I make it?! Is this crazy? Siao liao..

But I'm not the only one staying up apparently! Haha..at least got someone to chat to so won't be so boring..

It's already 3am now..*goes do stuff and continues post later*

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Now that one major event has concluded, along with January..what's in store for the rest of the year?

An Ending means New Beginnings..but what kind of new beginnings are coming?

So fast, one and half months is finished!

EEKS I forgot I have to study for my final theory..2nd attempt..-_- its on Feb 20..

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The person who was staying up too, gave up.. :( (want to put disclaimer first, I did not ask her to stay up, she happened to find me on msn first, and tell me she decided to stay up)

She started giving lots of those excuses to justify herself for not going for morning PM..too tiring to pray early in the morning, don't like having so many people around when praying, so crowded..etc..

What I feel, it's only 'Want' or 'Don't Want' with God.

I thank God though, that she trusts me enough to share some of her personal life with me..being open to me..I'm given a privilege as a friend, when people share with me..

If you're reading my blog, I Love YOU ok gal..I'm praying for you..thank you for giving me access to your life.. :)

Jiayou ok..I believe in you, and God is with you..believe you know but is just feeling a bit confused over what to do now bah..

Anytime I'm here, just to lend you the listening ear you need bah.. :)

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It reminded me of something..I seriously don't like 'ai mai ai mai' (undecided, fickle, one minute yes another minute no) type of guys. My future husband must be decisive (but not to the point of dominant; got to be considerate to my opinions too of course), and keep to his word. As in, don't everything also 'anything' or 'up to you' or 'I don't know', and definitely don't promise something, but never deliver..

Btw, I DID manage to stay up after all..about 4.30am now..muahaha..=D Call me crazy, but I'm too ONzzzzz for morning PM tomorrow/later, don't know why..I'm not so overly religious ok, I guiltily overslept on Monday morning and went to evening PM, remember..hmm....

I think, I'm so gonna get my coffee when I go to school...^^

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Just finished and sent the edited props list for dialect CNY drama....

Am really tired..still have to prepare cue sheet (when I eventually wake up tomorrow)..

Anyway, today's rehearsal was ok..can see the fruit beginning to take shape...I'm thankful I have 3 MANpower for my backstage crew..glad too that Eileen is there to help Justin with the blocking and acting stuff..and Shawn too to give tips..I'm not an octopus, I really can't keep an eye on the back AND front of the stage at the same time...

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I'm thankful for each and every single person involved..whether the stage or off-stage ministries..

Really feel God has given a lot of favour to this drama..or at least, I'm experiencing it..

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John Bevere spoke this weekend, he is FANTASTIC. I'm just blown away by his message. I really want his books and audio cds, but no $$..

It's really so true, how you HONOUR your leaders/peers/entrusted ones to you, determines your reward..

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My birthday is coming soon, but I don't know what to do..

INTJ

This year..

I don't want the word 'normal', I want EXTRAORDINARY! In all aspects of my life.

So...

I'll stop saying I'm just normal. I'm extraordinary! :D And I'm going to do more non-normal things this year. I'm going to break through and through, above and beyond.

I just keep having this 'itch' in me, that wants to do more and more and more..in every single area that I have..

Of course, not more just for me, but for GOD. :)

And not just wanting more in terms of achievements, but more of God Himself.

It's just a word on my lips..'more'..

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Went for my first time to Dialect CNY drama rehearsal yesterday (Sunday). Think the second run was more 'there', just need everyone to work hard together, and we'll have a stellar production! :)

Really thank God for this bunch of people, though I just came on board they do respect my views..no diva attitude from anyone, which really goes to show how they're here for a good production to serve GOD's purpose, not their own..

I do think Justin, JiaJia and Vic have done a commendable job in overseeing this whole thing..especially when they're not specialised in drama in any way..

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Saw this test on Kexin's blog, been a few years since I last did it. Last time I was INFJ. Now, I'm INTJ. Very interesting and pretty accurate!

INTJ explanations:

Rational portrait of the Mastermind (INTJ)
Typelogic INTJ profile


Do the test too, and let me know what you are! :D

Christmas 2008

If you're looking for Christmas photos....

I don't have any. ^^;; Was too busy backstage to take any (except for ONE with Weishan aka "dong bian!" king, cos he took with every person).

Christmas Drama was alright, now I finally had today to catch up on one month of no sleep.

Now my figure is "dee-e-li-i-ciouss!" (or I wish, haha) after losing tons of weight again..seriously, my jeans became hipsters and then even lower than that..

I have souvenirs from Christmas..they're called bumps, bruises, cuts, and a whack on my head from a metal pole..X_X I even burnt my thumb during a rehearsal (melting the candle to stick it to the stand, and the flame suddenly got blown back by the aircon...)

Still, I felt really loved on Christmas! :) At least some people remembered me enough to give me smses, little chocs or even pressies! Its really the little things that help boost me through. Besides lots of prayer of course.

After the last service, reached home and KO till late today..

Must catch up on life's other responsibilities now..

Finally.

Even if you don't like Britney Spears, just watch her LIVE performance of "Womanizer" at Star Academy 2008 for at least one minute. Click 'watch in high quality' and turn up your sound! I am SUPER impressed by her entrance. Love the set design! And I love her dress too. I've always wanted a flare skirt like that, but can't find in sg...

EDIT: Changed the link, wrong link sorry!!

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Anyway, main topic for this post: Finally, I'm on the way to financial freedom!!!!!! FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY I managed to convince my parents to let me make a new account today. After 2 years of being NETS-less and no access to bank! Although, for the next couple of months, I still need to go through the 'old system' through my parents as I need to settle things with my old account, such as my next few pay, since its already credited in company's system to go there..and all my savings is still counted as 'stagnant' since they're going to stay in my old account..

BUT it's a first step! Fresh start! I can actually live like a normal person now (or soon anyway, as soon as I settle the payment problems)! No more cash-only basis. I fought the financial fight for 2 years, this walk that I am on. Persecutions comes with financial cut-off, etc. All that borrowing money just to eat sometimes, skipping meals, especially during SOT period, cos every cent of my pay goes to school fees, and even then had to borrow first still. Then the day RIGHT after I repaid all my debts, my stuff and wallet was stolen and I was flat broke. Had to borrow again, back in debt.

Thank You God, for preserving me throughout all these years. Everytime I cried out, but You provided for me. Even when I enrolled in SOT by faith, with no idea how to pay school fees, even had to borrow the $50 first to pay for admin fee. Your miracles kept shining through and through. Even from the very beginning, before all this 'tai zi' (trouble), that period of time when my allowance was already being cut, and I had to walk to MJ's house for cg every week so I could save money from bus fare..

God, You are seriously good to me. I want to cry when I think of how good You've always been.

You never let me down.

Finally, the fight is coming to an end.

This Christmas Eve, I turn 3 years old in Christ. 3 years ago, in 2005, I was touched by the drama on Christmas Eve. This year, I have this honourable privilege to stand on the other side of the stage now, and help out in a drama that will touch thousands like me before.

I also want to thank every person who has been supporting me throughout this time, whether as a shoulder or financially blessing me, you guys are awesome. My cg, leaders, ministries, friends, everyone..

I am Loved, and I am Recession-proof!!!

Back from KK

Back from Kota Kinabalu mission trip! Will blog more about the trip when I have more photos from everyone, and more time. Ahaha. Will upload to Facebook or something also, they look so small here.

Basically we helped the church, Glory Christian Centre, with a mini-Emerge event. My team was in charge of putting up a drama, while the other team took the telematch in the morning. I'm so impressed by my members, nearly all of them have never acted or even touched a stage in their lives before this. And yet, they put up a tear-jerking performance within a few days of practice only! Really God's anointing and grace with us!

Our hosts were wonderful! I want to go back to KK to enjoy!! Ahhhh! So beautiful and lovely!

Reality..I have a lot of assignments to clear back here now..@_@