True colours. Show me a smile.

Phil Collins - "True Colors":



I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful

You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness, inside you
Makes you feel so small

And I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Show me a smile then
Don't be unhappy, can't remember
When I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
Just call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

99 Balloons

Michael Bublé - "Haven't Met You Yet"

Michael Bublé is so awesome! :)

"Haven't Met You Yet" music video:



♥

Fancy Free

It is in our weakness that God's strength for us can be seen.

In our imperfection, where His grace can prove to be more than sufficient for us.

I'm not perfect, I know a lot of my mistakes and weaknesses, and in my weaknesses, I know even more how much I NEED God.

"Fancy Free" video!:



Anyway, like how the song describes, I'm going to be "Fancy Free" from now.

Her Diamonds

A higher transposed cover from a guy on youtube of Rob Thomas' "Her Diamonds":

God's Chisel

This has been floating around on fb and blogs, not sure if you've seen it yet, but it's really very true.



I am an original masterpiece, and I'm letting God chisel me.

Merry Christmas, Mr Lawrence

One of my most favourite songs of all time ever ever ever, if not Most favourite ever ever ever, "Merry Christmas, Mr Lawrence" by Sakamoto Ryuichi (IMO one of the best composers in the world):



I also like all the remixes made since, and even Utada Hikaru's version too, hahaha.

Go and listen to Sakamoto Ryuichi's other arrangements, such as the very famous "Say U Love Me". :)

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I'll find my way.

Listening and figuring out what God wants me to do next..

The challenges are just beginning, I guess..

Everything in life lies in 'decisions'. Decisions determine us. 'No decision', is also a decision.

I have one week holiday next week (don't ask why my school is so weird), just right for me to figure out where I'm standing now.

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I got what I asked for?

Keeping the dream alive

My laptop keeps overheating, having the blue error screen of death, and I can only switch off the main power via the power plug to restart it. It could be due to any (or a combination) of the following:

1. There is something wrong with my laptop.
2. The weather is so hot that its affecting my laptop too.
3. I am pushing my lappy too much, working too hard/too long hours until lappy protests and KO...

Available solutions:

a) Get it fixed
b) Buy new laptop
c) Stop working so hard

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I am in ♥ with this song, :



'Love Story by Taylor Swift, meets Viva la Vida by Coldplay - Piano Cello'

=)

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Thank you God, I just finished my work..

dreams..

There's still so much more I want to achieve. I'll share my dreams one by one,

hopefully if you're still sticking by me when I'm halfway down the yellow brick road.

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Soprano outing today at Sentosa was great! Had fun with the girls, and Idy's dog.

Munchkin kitty!

The cutest kitty ever!



♥!

Er, I'm supposed to be studying or doing something more useful..*coughs*

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My want list...aka to buy sooner or later this year..next few months or after clearing this arise and build..

-havianas (gold, silver, or black)
-bag from Charles and Keith (or something like it)
-accessories from that 4th floor shop in Heeren (is it called Cactus & Pine, or is that next door??). Eyeing the leopard print lighter necklace, laptop necklace, chunky bracelets..etc.

I forgot what else..

This post totally ran off from its original intention..

Finally.

Even if you don't like Britney Spears, just watch her LIVE performance of "Womanizer" at Star Academy 2008 for at least one minute. Click 'watch in high quality' and turn up your sound! I am SUPER impressed by her entrance. Love the set design! And I love her dress too. I've always wanted a flare skirt like that, but can't find in sg...

EDIT: Changed the link, wrong link sorry!!

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Anyway, main topic for this post: Finally, I'm on the way to financial freedom!!!!!! FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY I managed to convince my parents to let me make a new account today. After 2 years of being NETS-less and no access to bank! Although, for the next couple of months, I still need to go through the 'old system' through my parents as I need to settle things with my old account, such as my next few pay, since its already credited in company's system to go there..and all my savings is still counted as 'stagnant' since they're going to stay in my old account..

BUT it's a first step! Fresh start! I can actually live like a normal person now (or soon anyway, as soon as I settle the payment problems)! No more cash-only basis. I fought the financial fight for 2 years, this walk that I am on. Persecutions comes with financial cut-off, etc. All that borrowing money just to eat sometimes, skipping meals, especially during SOT period, cos every cent of my pay goes to school fees, and even then had to borrow first still. Then the day RIGHT after I repaid all my debts, my stuff and wallet was stolen and I was flat broke. Had to borrow again, back in debt.

Thank You God, for preserving me throughout all these years. Everytime I cried out, but You provided for me. Even when I enrolled in SOT by faith, with no idea how to pay school fees, even had to borrow the $50 first to pay for admin fee. Your miracles kept shining through and through. Even from the very beginning, before all this 'tai zi' (trouble), that period of time when my allowance was already being cut, and I had to walk to MJ's house for cg every week so I could save money from bus fare..

God, You are seriously good to me. I want to cry when I think of how good You've always been.

You never let me down.

Finally, the fight is coming to an end.

This Christmas Eve, I turn 3 years old in Christ. 3 years ago, in 2005, I was touched by the drama on Christmas Eve. This year, I have this honourable privilege to stand on the other side of the stage now, and help out in a drama that will touch thousands like me before.

I also want to thank every person who has been supporting me throughout this time, whether as a shoulder or financially blessing me, you guys are awesome. My cg, leaders, ministries, friends, everyone..

I am Loved, and I am Recession-proof!!!

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It has been a really frustrating week.

Btw, I passed my basic theory.



In the back of a car on a road in the dark,
In the stillicide, silently falling snow,
I have packed everything that I own in a bag,
And I'm driving, I'm driving to Idaho,
A poem for leaving, a reason to go,
So I'm driving, I'm driving to Idaho.

'Cause I can't be anyone but me, anyone but me,
And I can't keep dreaming that I'm free, dreaming that I'm free,
I don't want to fall asleep and watch my life from fifty feet,
My hands are on the wheel so I'm driving to Idaho,
'Cause I hear it's mighty pretty...

And oh, I've been dumb, I've been perfectly beautiful,
Lain on my back buying lovers with stealth,
But I'm sick of you all, and I'm sick of opinions,
And I'm sick of this war I wage on myself...
I don't know why I'm so gripped to go there
A universe riddle that only I know?
Mr. Robert he says, "It's all in the head!"
Tell me, Phaedrus, what's good, is it Idaho?

'Cause I can't be anyone but me, anyone but me,
And I can't keep dreaming that I'm free, dreaming that I'm free,
I don't want to fall asleep and watch my life from fifty feet,
My hands are on the wheel so I'm driving to Idaho,
'Cause I hear it's mighty pretty...
In Idaho.

Stress for sale!

Exam tomorrow (Sat). Stressed. Props not confirmed. Stressed. Being high 'C' and everything is 'not sure' state. Triple stressed. Stressss for sale, buy one get one free.

X_X

I have overcome this before, I can do this again..

With God, all things are possible. :)

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5 o' clock and a fire escape symphony,
Spilling out across the road and the square,
And the sky's the same as your own, do you think of me?
Do the parks, and trees, and the leaves, reach you, there?
After the rain, in the lonely hours he haunts me, calling out,
Again and again.

Sophia, Sophia, I'm burning, I'm burning.
It's a fire, it's a fire, I cannot put out,
Sophia, Sophia, I'm learning that some things,
I can't go without and one of of them is him.

And now I walk these streets like a stranger in my home town,
Learn the language, form the words when I speak,
But he changed me, I'm his ghost since he came around,
And now I count the hours and the days in the weeks.

Passion and silence,
Every word, every line, a measure,
It's the science of the soul,
And his books, they breathe a reason and now I want to know...

Sophia, Sophia, I'm burning, I'm burning,
It's a fire, it's a fire, I cannot put out,
Sophia, Sophia, I'm learning that some things,
I can't go without and one of of them is him.

You, with your new born eyes,
Have you ever loved a man like I love him?
Do you hurt but still feel alive, like never before?
Oh, Sophia, Sophia.

Sophia, Sophia, I'm burning, I'm burning,
It's a fire, it's a fire, I cannot put out,
Sophia, Sophia, I'm learning that some things,
I can't go without and one of of them is him.

learning to breathe.

Here's a slightly happier song cos people complain I make them emo..

Hmm, I guess I'm just a teensy bit emo this season..guess it'll be better soon?

Maybe its got to do with Christmas Day syndrome..yup..

Haiz..=(




Oh, this road is long, this road is wide,
It takes more than luck to last the ride,
It takes strength and it takes courage to survive,
And did someone ever say to you,
"There's nothing bound in thought you cannot do?"
Well, I've seen some things but not all of them came true.

So I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
Don't want to be alone with my thoughts tomorrow,
And I don't want to be afraid, don't want to look away,
I'm learning to breathe,
No I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
I just need a hope and a light to follow,
Like sailors look to stars to find their way home,
I'm learning to breathe on my own.

And I know a man who lost his wife,
This is the way he chooses to describe his life,
He says, "If I think too much, I find there's just a hole,"
But before she went, she left a son,
He says, "Dad, you're not the only one,
Maybe love is just a requiem for the soul..."

So I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
Don't want to be alone with my thoughts tomorrow,
And I don't want to be afraid, don't want to look away,
I'm learning to breathe,
No I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
I just need a hope and a light to follow,
Like sailors look to stars to find their way home,
I'm learning to breathe on my own.

Oh, do you still feel small?
Just a speck of life on an ocean wave,
Does it pull us all?
Does it pull us all?

So I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
Don't want to be alone with my thoughts tomorrow,
And I don't want to be afraid, don't want to look away,
I'm learning to breathe,
No I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
I just need a hope and a light to follow,
Like sailors look to stars to find their way home,
I'm learning to breathe on my own.

What will I see

Yup, as requested, I'm here to update..

There's nothing much to say about school, except that I have an exam this Saturday..

Last week, I dreamt that I flunked my exam. o.O Which is really weird and freaky. Of course, when you're dreaming, it's hard to be logical and rational about reality. I wasn't exactly very worried about my exam actually, so I have no idea why. -_-

Studying hard cos I want that HIGH DISTINCTION!!!!

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Good news and bad news..

Good news: My dad's colonoscopy results is CLEAR!

Bad news: The lump that they removed from my dad's leg is a cancerous tumour..so that means there's a chance of recurrence..

Troubled..

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My article is published in the November issue of TEENS. I interviewed Hossan Leong, and also did a food review with him at Miss Clarity Cafe. Do check it out if you have time. :)

This is a small step towards bigger dreams..

More articles will be out in following issues!

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"When all the tears have dried" (Sing to the Dawn), written by Dick Lee, sung by Emma Yong:



But if I turn away from what I've started
Then will I always wish that I had tried
By breaking free will I be broken-hearted
What will I see when all the tears have dried

Feel like I'm doing a lot, yet not enough at the same time..ARGH!!!

This shouldn't be the end, but my beginning,
What will I see when all the tears have dried?

I spend too much time on youtube =D

Length of time is never a good indicator of One's level of commitment, maturity, etc etc, to anything. This is for anything from age maturity, career, spiritual, etc.

I've seen people who stay stagnant for YEARS, and when you look at them after a whole Decade, they either reached their limit and stagnate, or they just refused to grow at all. It's like a seed that got buried but refused to sprout.

I've seen people who far surpassed their "seniors" in a short span of just a year, and they amaze me. What they accomplished in one year is far more what others even did in ten years.

What's the differentiating factor?

I don't know what people see when they look at me. An averagely growing seed that grows at an average pace, average rate, average quality fruits? I wonder sometimes (just as random curious thoughts), do people rate my Christian walk merely based on the number of years I've been in church?

I only know that in this short span of time, I've already accomplished far more than I ever thought I'd do. There's still much more that I want to do, but I haven't yet. Should I be disappointed? I can't say that I'm not, but maybe it's cos of that slightly perfectionist streak within me.

One step at a time?

I'm happy though. :) Cos I wouldn't have any of this without God in my life.

It would have been different, so so much different, if..

Anyway. I'm not here to impress other Christians. I just do what I do, the best that I can for the ONLY ONE that matters.

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HAHAHA! Minesweeper, The Movie:

Subarashiki Kana, Kono Sekai

My initial thought about what my dad's operation really meant just got changed. The lump that was removed from his leg is probably a cancerous tumour, which means there are chances that cancerous cells may still be prevalent. My dad googled his condition, and he's feeling a little gloomy about the prospects. I think he's pessimistic.

Back to doctor's review in another 6 months..I hope he'll be given a clean bill of health.

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I'm keeping to my goal to be fitter! Went running yesterday and today. Have to tone away all the flab from eating and eating and eating and..

Want to be back to a more toned self! Come on!! Or no mooncakes for me this year!

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Troubled....I wish I could be more decisive. The most stressful part is when you kind of make a decision, then you still can change your decision, and you wonder whether you should..so much at stake. Well, life is about risks isn't it, calculating the risks and deciding on your course of action each time. If not, how can you ever grow and overcome if there's no challenges?

I need CLARITY.

In the meantime, I'm feeling somewhat encouraged by Miyavi's 素晴らしきかな、この世界 -WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD-. The video is addictively awesome, and the lyrics are great. Basically it's about how we should lighten up in life.

For your benefit, here's a subbed in English version by someone on youtube (ignore the website link advertised, it doesn't work):




And this is for my self-indulgent benefit. I like to watch the video without the words:



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When circumstances in life are so depressing as it is already, I've got to keep my spirit up.

Why

Something from Youtube. First saw it on someone's Facebook.

A 13-year old boy, Logan, who lives on a ranch, makes a phone call to Houston radio station 89.3FM KSBJ. His words are really wisdom beyond his years.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zCdZwitrNoY