Rounding off 2008

I actually wrote a very long post, then........

I accidentally pulled out the wire for the laptop.

No draft saved.

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Anyway! Moving on..let's have a quick summary of what I actually wanted to write..

Thanking God for 2008!

I thank God for my family. Though they may not always support me, and sometimes persecute, scold, threaten, etc., cos of me being the only Christian..I still love them, and thank God for protection. The devil loves to attack them when he can't attack me directly..

I thank God for my friends. Each person really is a wonderful colour in my life. Thank you for being a part of my 2008! :)

I thank God for my ministries. I'm blessed to enjoy Drama, and being encouraged when I'm inside. Also now I get to enjoy Choir, and its another amazing area.

I thank God for SOT! Is there anything I can say about it that I haven't said before? Life-changing and its a moulding process inside..incredible!

I thank God I can enjoy City News, experience Parade of Nations, etc..when "once in a lifetime" knocks at your door, you better open and receive it! Too many regrets from not trying, now this year, I'm glad to have tried and enjoyed! Seize the golden opportunity while its there!!

I thank God for preservation of my whole self. No one actually knows my whole situation, and I don't really share much..I don't have anything to 'hide', its finding the right person/people tcan be very difficult..Sometimes, God knows is enough. And He will send me the right people in my life to give me timely advice when I need at crucial times.

Thank You God, You gave me so many opportunities this year. Two years ago, I've been holding on to the promise that 2008 was my year..and indeed, it's been an extreme ride...lots of challenges, lots of breakthroughs, lots of hard work..and again and again, Your grace is sufficient for me..

Oh yes, thank God for job and school that comes at the right timing, and can fit my very strange schedule! Lots more to thank God for, but...think I need to write a book, if I keep going on and on...

So, here's to a Wonderful year in 2008 that God gave me! And now, let's get ready for a SUPERB 2009 with God!

I already started feeling the tingles in my tummy and my toes, about some of the paths to venture forth on concerning my new direction for 2009..been stirring in me~ whoots!

Only Time and God will tell, yah? :)

2009, are you ready?!

Happy 21st Birthday Candice!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CANDICE!

To someone who has been there for me throughout all these years, been ever so patient, a true representation of sisterly love to another, a great friend..when I don't know what to do, you just listen, when I need encouragement, you're always ready to tell me 'jiayou'!

I can't even begin saying how much I love CANDICE!!! <33

I thank God that He placed YOU in my life, and I'm glad to be your good friend too! :)

I pray that you get to fulfill God's calling in your life even more, and that as you sacrifice to seek His face more and more, you will not lose out, but instead, have all abundance added unto you.

Even as you try to figure your direction out more clearly, to find out what to do, what you need to have/not have, I hope you are greatly blessed with clarity and wisdom in mind.

And I'm going out of the house to meet you in a few hours time. ;)

Talk and Thoughts

I may talk a lot, but I don't talk a lot, if you get my meaning.

Christmas 2008

If you're looking for Christmas photos....

I don't have any. ^^;; Was too busy backstage to take any (except for ONE with Weishan aka "dong bian!" king, cos he took with every person).

Christmas Drama was alright, now I finally had today to catch up on one month of no sleep.

Now my figure is "dee-e-li-i-ciouss!" (or I wish, haha) after losing tons of weight again..seriously, my jeans became hipsters and then even lower than that..

I have souvenirs from Christmas..they're called bumps, bruises, cuts, and a whack on my head from a metal pole..X_X I even burnt my thumb during a rehearsal (melting the candle to stick it to the stand, and the flame suddenly got blown back by the aircon...)

Still, I felt really loved on Christmas! :) At least some people remembered me enough to give me smses, little chocs or even pressies! Its really the little things that help boost me through. Besides lots of prayer of course.

After the last service, reached home and KO till late today..

Must catch up on life's other responsibilities now..

One thing I ask

I am back online after 4 days without internet..but only for a short while, have to leave the house in a little while...

It is very difficult....

I'm flying both JW and Expo shows...every night, every day, rehearsal...

The fight for me doesn't end after Christmas..

Attack comes from everywhere (as with every production)...

It hurts.......it hurts more than anyone will ever understand, in more ways than anyone could understand...

Only God remains my strength.....

Because its really really tough.

It hurts everywhere, and I still have to battle another round after Christmas..

Glorious Redeemer.

More of You, oh Lord
More of You, in my life, Holy Spirit

God, I prayed, and I prayed, and I prayed..preserve me.

Even when people are determined to whack me down, even when the devil hates my guts so much he wants to whack me everywhere, inside and out..

PRESERVE ME!

Its like having knives through my back, front, and heart.

PRESERVE ME FATHER.

No weapon formed against me shall prosper.

The faithful and the just will see the reward..

Preserve me, Lord.

By Your blood, by Your word, by Your love for us all.

Merry Christmas to all in advance. Don't forget the reason for the season, as you celebrate.

John 3:16.

You're always there.

At 2am+, I didn't have any peace in my heart..

Decided, very suddenly, to do something I've never done before...

I went up to my rooftop, laid down on my back (on the 'platform' thing, if you've ever been to my house), and looked up at the moon and stars..

The air was super cold..breezy..

As I looked up at the sky, I marvelled at God's creation.

I decided to start listening to a worship song, 'dalam kasihmu bapa', from my hp.

When it started playing, all of a sudden, I thought of my Kota Kinabalu mission trip, and the wind started suddenly blowing like incredibly super strong, felt like I was going to be blown off the roof..I was crying as I was reminded of KK, and these words kept repeating in my mind.."You're always there...You're always there..You're always there.."

"I'm always there."

God, You are too incredible for me to comprehend. I love You. Your ways are higher than my ways. I'm just in awe.

Unto God be the glory of all that I do.

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..on a side note, may be the first and last time I do something like that. I accidentally kicked my foot on something when I was coming down from the 'platform'. Painnnn.

Random thoughts before I leave the house

When you give your best to God, He'll never shortchange you..

A lot of people think I'm foolish. A lot I've given up in order to follow the 'call' when it comes.

This whole month, of course, my heart (and wallet) has been very pained..

And everything will be worth it in the end. No stronger assurance than what God gives to you.

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I'll never know for sure what God plans for me. I don't really 'ask' about it though. Just trust. And 'go with the HS flow', is what I always say.

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The packet of tapioca chips is staring at me..I can't eat it till after production cos we all know what happens when I eat junk food during this time.....

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Off to expo (after doing some more props shopping) later..not for rehearsal, but to check out our sets..a tingly excited feeling, whoo hoo~

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"What's the point? The same thing always happens every year. You tell me the same thing, you do the same thing, year after year. And still the same thing always. Why don't you just [.....]"

I refuse to agree with her suggestion. Because my conviction is stronger than that.

Or maybe I'm just a stubborn cow.

*bo hue*

Mooooooo?